For some reason...whenever I'm absotively bored...I've overcome with just about every emotion imaginable...and I always have too much time to think...whats on my mind...

Lately, it feels as if I'm not even here....I know I'm here, but for me, time has stopped...or rather, I wish it would stop. It feels like I'll be having to make alot of decisions soon, one's that may affect me now, and even in the distant future... Its not that I'm not ready to decide on anything, its just that...rather, I don't feel like doing it... Its not like I wish things would remain the way they are forever...yet, at the same time, I could care less about what the future may bring... I'm unhappy. I'm unhappy now, and I fear what unhappiness may come in the future... I wish...I wish I could go back in time, and relive the moments that have made life worth living...Whether those moments were days ago, or even years ago...I want to relive them all, and reach that happiness again...


I think...I'm just lonely right now...